My stepdad's mom died recently .. and well .. i thought he'd have more of a reaction to what happened.. but he didnt. After he found out, he was just super chill with it .. he just took it like it was nothing, like it was just another person's death . I don't know what to say .. well he is old.. and so was she .. so i guess they were prepared for her death .. but still .. idk .. the reaction was just what took me by surprise ....
.. im the type of person that notices everything .. i wish i didn't .. but i do ..
and when i noticed his actual pain inside.. behind the mask of him not caring.. i felt so much sadness for him .. my heart just went out to him .. my step dad .. the dude that was always making jokes and making me laugh .. he for that one split second when i looked at him.. he was just purely sad ..
i didn't have any words to console him .. and that made me angry ....
.. i started to wonder .. what would my reaction be if someone really close to me died ... it has happened before .. but i mean .. an actual family member ... not a close friend [which was the one that was taken from me]... but yeah .. idk .. i wish that i would show some emotion towards their death .. but for some reason i think that i would just be numb to everything ...
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