16th birthday ... finally realized ...

hmm .. ok .. 

well i just celebrated my 16th birthday .. =]] 

it was fun .. 

but it made me realize that its so insane how fast we grow. It seems like just yesterday, I was in the 2nd grade, in the Spelling Bee looking up at my mom for support when I didn't know how to spell something, and now I'm looking at colleges that I might be interested in applying to. Thinking back on it, all of the times that I thought, "I want to grow up already!" "I hate being too young" I think back on those times. and i say to myself " wow i was stupid" .. 

Now all I think about is how hard it is to be growing up. I've had to face so many problems, that I wish I could just walk away from. I've done so many things that I wish i didn't have to do, but at the same time have no regret doing. Everytime I look back at those times, I just think wow, now i wish i didn't grow up so fast. I wish I had enjoyed every moment of my youth, however short it was. 

In a way it made me sad, but at the same time, I was excited and fearful of what is to come ... 

My Opininons do Count !!

So many people think that my opinion does not matter, and I am sick of  it. I am sick of being interrupted when I am speaking, and sick of being yelled at. No ones opinion is more superior than the others, they are just different. 

I'm sick of having people think that their voice only matters. Is it so much to ask for them to realize that during my life, I have acquired a voice of my own? I never ask them to care about what I think, just to have the decency to listen. It enrages me to think about how many say that I am loud and mean. Do they ever wonder why? Maybe its because they don't want to listen to me, and half of the time I'm right! Half of the time, if they listened to me they would not be in their predicament! UUUUUGHHH ! 

-Lala-